My primary reason for getting away was that I felt I had
stopped feeling anything, being a hard-core vibe and emotion person that felt
like a death sentence that had clearly been executed and executed very well!
This week I was flooded with feelings albeit of varied kinds. Barring the
constant physical pain I have been through since I landed here, listing down
the 3 most significant events of this week.
The Killing Fields –Killed me!
After procrastinating for a month I decided to man up and
visit Choeung Ek, expecting a really horrific site. The lush green and peaceful
venue sure had me fooled initially, for the ill informed this could very well
be a scenic picnic spot. And then bit-by-bit the trauma unfolded, I survived
upto the killing tree where I sat and wept completely aghast feeling extremely
helpless and angry. The killing tree is where the Khmer rouge after killing the
parents grabbed the kids and smashed their skull into the tree to ensure that
the kids don’t grown up and seek revenge. You can still see bones and fragments
of their clothing peeping up from the soil…
Take back: As my boss commented the worse race on earth is
us, one maniacs idiotic vision and we all become degenerate slaves catering to
his every whim. With all the stress and pressure of surviving in the world
today, it is very easy to fly off the handle and before you know it you have
snowballed into the next ISIS. We ALL have it in us to save a life as well as
take it; lets not push the wrong buttons. Lets learn to rein it in and feel
centered, whatever works for you deep breathing, yoga, meditation. I know events like this have happened
before, but I sincerely hope they never happen again.
My friend Lena
Lena had come to watch a movie at the theatre, she met
another guy there and they were generally hanging out. Before leaving the
theatre they asked me for directions and we got talking. They told me they were
going to a party and asked me to join in. I was done for the day so I agreed.
Three random strangers went to a couple of places that night, spoke a lot and
had a great time. Lena asked me which theatre I was working at the next day,
promising to come visit me again. I smiled not expecting her to actually show
up, but she did J I
have a lot of time free between movie screenings and she started coming and
hanging out with me, she would get her bike we would explore the city, have a
meal, exchange travel stories etc. Slowly (actually rather fast since its just
been a week) we have become very close. I recently found out that we have a
common friend whom she had met in Laos, the world is a village she joked.
Lena has helped me realize that the world is actually a
village and all the love and happiness I felt with spending time with her, I
would soon find with the next person who was traveling through. She is pushing
me to explore my limits and breakout of the conventional traveler and become a
real traveler. A part of me has already transformed, other parts are work in
progress.
Take back: going to face my biggest test tom of not getting
attached to people as Lena is leaving tom. Take each day as it comes, easier
said than done, but hey at least am trying!
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